little mermaid

shipwrecked.

the ship that'll wreck before it lands on the coast
we still board just because everyone does it

the beautiful scenery is promising
the sea is crystal clear penetrate to underwater
the sky is spacious full of blue and white

but don't we all know
the sea was not made for everyone.

the waves are too fast
the tides are unexpected

and (now) then we only hope we stranded to somewhere safe.
maybe an island
a beautiful island

because finally, we all deserved living.





,u12

shipwreck

berenang
berperang
aku kau dan ombak
kau ombak dan aku

tibanya sudah kuduga
ritmanya sudah kuhafal

dia datang menghempas
merampas
hatimu dipulas
hatiku diculas

mataku pedih
hatiku jerih
air sudah paras muncung
hatiku dahulu dipancung

kakiku longlai
jiwaku sudah bercerai berai
nafasku dihujung tangkai

perlahan aku sedar
realiti mendakap diri
aku bukan lagi sebuah bingkai













9/4/2018

,u12/T#kzims

l'avenir

I've enjoyed listening to the performance and people screaming, standing by the window watching fireworks with people countdown for the new year wasting my time in the library studying for finals, catching up on datelines, discussion and assignments so late until I'd missed the bus so I have to walk to reach my dorm, attend the theater with a front-row seat, I cried during the hero had to die and I laugh for part two, failing on my tests, lost my bracelet and stressing about eczema.

I experience all these things without you, I survived...until today without you. But why do I still miss you....? Why does my mind-heart still remember you, someone who never exist or walk into my life? 

I know you are somewhere some far away. Thus I hope you eat well, study well and living well. Whatever you do, don't give up on time like this. 

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Just...wait for me

wait, so I know that I'm not fighting this battle alone.....

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I've still got so much love hidden beneath this skin

So darling

Put a little love on me

We wrote and we wrote

Til there were no more words

We laughed and we cried

Until we saw our worst

Is it wrong that I still wonder where you are

Is it wrong that I still don't know my heart

12/8/2019

,u12

greystones

selfish
manipulative
obsessive
defensive

all the words that brave enough to punch my gut

it cost pain
leave a bruised
and tattooed all my body

two feet
you leave

your last wish
it nails in my head
I read it like a pray
and chanting your names within

I know you already moved on
black suits and dress
nice place
fresh flowers
on the stone
that carve my name

those four words
I will never get to say
so I keep it
as I rest in peace






,u12

2%

Tuhan....

walau sedang aku tersasar
aku masih mahu pulang ke landasan yang benar

ketika hati ini keras dan beku
aku masih mahu terus bersujud kepadaMu

ketuklah hatiku berkali kali
ingatkan aku bahawa ini semua duniawi

kecewa dan putus asa
hadirkan ia untuk seketika


kerana  Tuhan
aku masih lagi mahu
terus berharap dan
berteduh dibawah rahmatmu









,Dewan Resital Panca Sakti






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