Wednesday, August 25, 2021

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cheers to 25, because we are finally sailing



I supposed this how a quarter year old of a decade feels like

like a plain yogurt

bland
boring 
sour
and healthy?

I wanted to say remind this to myself, maybe to you too even if you’re not 25 years old or above 25...

You don’t have to rush into everything
You don’t have to feel like ‘this world’ is a fucking race.
You don’t have to overwork, overstress, or involved with stupid things that your 50 years old with regret.

Because... just because I see and I lived in the moment where someone who is closer to me, today he wishes someone would tell him or advice him all of those simple reminders above. I know dead sound like a sensitive and trigger subject to talk about. You can live healthy today and who knows tomorrow you die? But somehow, living in the moment you truly cherish and appreciate are the most things you could give yourself. 

I know how people out there will say:

“Work hard while you’re still young”

“Enjoy your life while you’re still young because you only young once”

“Save a lot while you’re young so when you turned 40,  you can retire early and enjoy with the money you saved”

“Get married early, give birth early so you can play with your grandchildren while you’re still young”

It’s easy to say when this whole miss corona thing doesn’t happen to you when you are in your final semester final year, graduated,  turned 25 and miss corona is still there. And it sounds so easy to just bluntly talk just like how the words will soak your head. But at the end of the day, all I can see is just full of toxicity or bullshit. I don't have anything to argue to look stupid.

So? Just do whatever you wanted to do as long as you know your limit. 
Everything has a limit. So do whatever you want as long as you’re 50, Your 50 years old self will thank you enough.

Dear self, or whoever who sail the same ships as mine,

Don’t get married just because of peer pressure. just because you think you have to do so. Because marriage is full of responsibilities and a long time commitment to your partner. 

Don’t overwork yourself, Don't beat yourself, hidden in a small cubicle full of workloads. When the clock turns 5pm, just quickly clock out, pack your suitcase and go home.

Don’t buy a house just because people buy it? or just because you eagerly want to do some decorations shit that you easily influence by Pinterest and just because you see people who bought a house seems so easy?
Is it worth going through one and half an hour of jammed from your house to the workplace? Is all the stress from jammed and workload really worth it at the end of the day?

Rewards yourself once a month. Rewards yourself even if it is just a small thing you could get. Buy food you craved for, the most expensive books you can get, shoes that will look good on you, and anything you always wanted. Anything with your own money because you deserve all the shits that put you through. 

Buy all the things you always wanted because life is short and you are young? And then you realize that your life is just the same as a plain yogurt? Somehow you deserve a healthy life. You are what you eat

You can do this you-quarter-years-old-of-decade
And 25 is just a number

You scared, I know. Because me too. I'm a natural overthinker BUT HEY at least we know how to live. I mean you and I are on the same ship, we are sailing.

,u12