l'avenir

I've enjoyed listening to the performance and people screaming, standing by the window watching fireworks with people countdown for the new year wasting my time in the library studying for finals, catching up on datelines, discussion and assignments so late until I'd missed the bus so I have to walk to reach my dorm, attend the theater with a front-row seat, I cried during the hero had to die and I laugh for part two, failing on my tests, lost my bracelet and stressing about eczema.

I experience all these things without you, I survived...until today without you. But why do I still miss you....? Why does my mind-heart still remember you, someone who never exist or walk into my life? 

I know you are somewhere some far away. Thus I hope you eat well, study well and living well. Whatever you do, don't give up on time like this. 

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Just...wait for me

wait, so I know that I'm not fighting this battle alone.....

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I've still got so much love hidden beneath this skin

So darling

Put a little love on me

We wrote and we wrote

Til there were no more words

We laughed and we cried

Until we saw our worst

Is it wrong that I still wonder where you are

Is it wrong that I still don't know my heart

12/8/2019

,u12